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Well, I can't start every post with "well, I've been meaning to post here" but it's the truth.

Things sped up in my divorce process with Kody. One month and we'll be un-married to each other. I'm not really sad about it anymore. This process has shown me my own strength, the strength of my support network, and the things I'm just not willing to accept anymore.

In the process I had the realization that I've been planning my dreams based on being half of something. You just can't do that. I deserve to be a whole thing. If it's just me, I have to step it up. I have to stop accepting things for myself that i would never see as okay for someone i loved. I have to love myself that much.So, I'm thinking about going to teach English overseas. I'll be finished with this degree soon and I just really want to reach outside my comfort zone and g-r-o-w.

So, since I hadn't changed my residency to Michigan yet and Kody was trying to screw me over, i got in my car and drove right back to Tennessee. I filed for divorce a month and a week ago. I don't plan on staying here. I love it here but keep leaving for the same reasons. There is no diversity here. There is no room for career growth here. it's hard because it is beautiful and many of the people here are lovely.

I think ultimately I'm going to end up taking a job in a country that pays really well, teach there till my loans are paid off, then go to the Republic of Georgia, Ukraine, Russia, Croatia, and Nepal. I'm pretty sure as soon as this divorce is final I'm going back to Michigan till I'm done with school. I need to take another semester of Russian and I can't do that here. Also, all my stuff is still in storage in Michigan and one way or another that's got to get sorted out. I'm starting to look crazy but I promise it's situational. I do have a plan. It's just new and still got some kinks to work out.

Anyway, I'm never here anymore but it doesn't mean I don't love you guys. It doesn't mean i don't want to share with you either. You're all so amazing. I'm so lucky to have spent so many years of my life with you.

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chaichilaquiles
Oct. 24th, 2012 02:03 am (UTC)
Do you have a fb? What country do you think will pay well? The first one that comes to my mind is Saudi Arabia.
lorigrrl
Oct. 25th, 2012 07:50 pm (UTC)
http://www.facebook.com/lorylin

You know, Saudi Arabia and UAE pay best. Korea, Taiwan and China are probably right behind. I'm thinking even with the money, I still probably want to go to Eastern Europe. The worst that happens is I'm poor. I've been poor before. I'll live.
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